I only have a few words to say. I have the wierdst school ever!!!!
Alrighty, i've been feeling a little uninspired as of late so im asking you all to help me out a bit. Im willing to do some requests, but in my style. You can requst in a 'normal type' or in my anthro style. I can attempt humans but i have very little parctice, and no BG's unless i feel like it, lol. So comment here or send me a note with a reference please. I'll only do a few at a time. And i apologize to and i am working on your pictures when i can but as of now my mind is blank on yours. Sorry
Jezus, people are going to start to think im like bipolar or suffer from extreme mood swings. Maybe i do but whatev. Okay my last journal was way to depressing so im like hyped up on sugar and caffeine. This week was pretty solid, we had about three days, sweet ass. Monday was a P.D day or something. Then tuesday was this huge ass snow storm which it itself is depressing cause i thought at last the snow was over (Mother Nature is one sadistic woman) But it was also good cause we had a snow day. Im also very happy cause i got like a 90% on a worksheet in math (which is like the worst class ever) So im real happy bout that. And...... yah thats it for now my brains empty now.
I have been thinking as of late. And I am still far from an conclusion to any of the questions wandering in my brain. Im slightly troubled you could say. But its almost as if its not a wholly bad thing either. Thats why im in such a tizzy. But nevertheless to the topic of this journal. Restriction. I can feel its heavy straps upon my shoulders. I wish ever so dearly to be set free. But my captors havent a clue. To them Im a happy bird, twittering away in my cage by the window, watching the world pass by never a care. But happy is not an emotion I feel as the world turns without me. So left out. But included, yes, in the small world of my cage. Friends and family all caring so dearly. But this longing I have so deep it is. I cannot bear to break their hearts if ever I spoke the truth. That yes love them I do but miss them sadly I find myself unable to. I cannot tell them that I wish to leave so quickly and to perhaps never return. I need to spread these unused wings and learn to fly, whether I teach myself or not. But they believe my wings are yet to fresh of the egg. Perhaps a wee longer they say to my silent pleas. I see it in their eyes, wanting the best but not knowing what is good for me. For to each what is good or bad is always different. Oh freedom how I want thee.
Listening to: Beggin` by Frankie Valli & The Four Seasons
Reading: The Last Days - Scott Westerfield
Drinking: Water
Midori's Canadian News
Things are starting to settle down. Were all dealing with it in our own ways, but things are more normal now. My art class is going to make a painting of her for her family, it will also be at her grad. Theres also a memorial service on Tuesday were all going to. Even though i barely knew her im going to go to give my condolences.
Spring is nudging its way even deeper into the soil. Today i was able to go outside without wearing a sweater. Im sensitive to the cold though. But its nice. The weather is helping me feel better. I hope for summer soon.
Farewell ~Midori
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Today was a horrible day in Alberta. This morning one of the buses got in a horrible accident. It was really foggy out but the school stayed open and the buses running. One bus had stopped on the highway to pick up some kids and right as they were to board a gravel truck, who couldn't see for the fog was so thick, ran into the bus from behind. Oh God it was horrible the back is completely torn and part of the side as well. Most kids had minor injuries but three went to the hospital. One girl was released later today, thank God. A boy is still in critical condition and was air lifted to Edmonton. The third though, Jenny she was in grade 12 and the year is almost over. She had just bouht her grad dress. she didn't make it. Its just so hard so close to me. I didn't know her to well being a grade over me but she was always nice and wanted to be a vet someday. like you hear these stories but its always somewhere else, but to have it in your own school, its devestating. Its just left me at such a loss i don't know what to think. Why such a sweet girl at her prime was taken from us.
We all love you Jenny. And our hearts go out to you and your family. I hope your in a better place now and watchiing over us, Goodbye.